I ask You of your mercy, by which you give guidance to my chaotic heart, and make my work easy and remove my distressed condition, and manage my issues when I lack the strength to do so.
Put Nur in my heart, in my blood and in every bone of mine. Increase my Nur, grant me Nur, and make Nur my fate.
Confession time- my zikirs have been rather "flimsy" of late. I recite zikir after my prayers but I wasn't consciously taking time out to mean what I say. Was I really thanking God for what He has given me for each of the 33 times I say Alhamdulillah?
After Isya' just now, I told myself for every time I recite Alhamdulillah, I have to think of one thing that happened today that I am thankful for. And then I realized that I had so many things to be thankful for-
- A really good piano lesson with Nigel. My fingers can run!!! Finally!
- Coming home to Mee Goreng, Sayur Lodeh, Lamb Curry, Tahu Goreng with Kicap Manis (thanks Mama No. 2/ Sherry)!!!!!
- The helper came today so my room is extra clean.
- An old friend texted me today after not talking to me for close to 2 years. I haven't replied her because I want to make sure that I craft a good reply. But OMG yay she's finally ready to talk to me again.
Recently, a really good friend told me that I've hurt her. I've apologized and she said that she needed some space. Whatever I did was unintentional and I really don't mean to hurt her in any way. I'm ready to give her as much space as she wants, and am just going to trust the process.
But for now, Alhamdulillah for everything. #blessed #okseriouslyNabillah